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~*~*~Chapter 81: Sugar &
Spice~*~*~
Carly walked down the hall concentrating on the sharp
clip of her heels on the tile. For more rapid escape from
the Happy Spencer Family Hour, she'd ducked down the
stairs to the fifth floor rather than risk nurses
stations and more unfortunate elevator encounters. Her
mother moved from floor to floor, responsibility to
responsibility, with a dizzying speed. But after a year,
she'd begun to be able to sense where she'd be -- what
shifts equaled what floors -- and sure enough, when she
got to the hub of the floor, she immediately spotted the
red cascade of hair that was Bobbie's calling card. She
was halfway across the room before she noticed something
else.
A doctor -- handsome mid-forties, graying at the temples
and flashing an "I'm an Handsome Man Smile" -- was
leaning against the counter in front of her mother,
speaking in a conspirator manner. She watched her mother
laugh, and then lean closer to her co-worker, eyes wide
and mouth grinning. Uh huh. She knew that look.
The doctor picked up a stack of files and took off with a
small salute, leaving Bobbie laughing as he dashed off
down the hall towards whatever dramatic situation awaited
him. Carly approached from the opposite direction,
catching her mother off guard when she spoke.
"Who's that guy?"
Bobbie jumped and tossed an annoyed look in her
daughter's direction. "That," she spoke with pointed
politeness, an habit that irritated the life out of
Carly. "Is Dr. Brian Beston. Why do you ask?"
Carly made a face in spite of herself. It sounded like a
super hero's secret identity. "He's new."
"He transferred here from Milwaukee about three months
ago. He's an oncologist with a specialty in lymphoma.
Beyond that, you'll have to ask Amy."
"What did he want?"
"He was picking up some files. How was your appointment?"
she asked, breezily, as she grabbed a stack of carbon
copies.
"It was. What did he want?"
"What makes you think he wanted something?"
Carly raised her brow.
"Oh, for --" Bobbie let the papers drop. "He asked me if
I wanted to get a drink after work. There -- does that
satisfy you?"
"Are you going to go?"
Her mother laughed, not particularly mirthfully. "I have
my hands full at the moment."
"With what? Me?"
"You, Lucas -- Nikolas has just been through something
awful with Stefan, I want to make sure he feels
comfortable at the house, and I was hoping I could count
on the two of you to have dinner with Lucas and I
tonight. Doesn't leave a lot of time for after work
cocktails, does it?"
"Watch it, Mother hen. All work and no play makes Bobbie
a pain in the ass."
Her mother tossed her a level look. "Carly. Drop it."
"You don't have to take care of me," Carly returned the
glare. "In fact. I was going to start dinner tonight,
anyway."
"You were."
"Why I'm here."
Bobbie shook her head. "Why?"
"I'm feeling domestic."
"Didn't you spend an hour making soup last night?"
"So what?" Carly spit out in exasperation. "Is there a
time limit or something? I can't be domestic for a whole
twenty-four hour period?"
"Carly," Bobbie said with maddening levelness. "What's
going on?"
"Nothing!"
"Because in two years, you've never offered to start
dinner for me."
"If I had," Carly growled, "You would have thought I was
doing it so that I could stick my head in the oven."
Her mother looked momentarily disturbed, then shook her
head. "That's not funny."
"No, it's true."
Bobbie frowned at her, severely, then turned her
attention back to her paper work. "You always read so
much into everything."
"And what? Sometimes a jug of milk is just a jug of
milk?"
"What does that --"
"Mama!" Carly lowered her voice into a harsh hospital
whisper. "I can make dinner. Nothing will burn down if
you go get off your cross and play with Doc Hollywood
over there."
She watched her mother's expression travel from shock to
suspicion. "You're taking an unusual amount of interest
in this."
Carly shrugged. "First time for everything."
She waited while her mother searched her face for
information.
"I'm sorry, how was your session, again?"
"Incident-free."
"And where's Nikolas?"
"In his office."
She gave a half-nod. "There's a lasagna in the freezer.
If you could put that in, and throw together a salad
Carly blanched. "Lasagna?"
"Carly!"
"Ok, ok!" she put up her hands, taking a step back. "I'll
do it. If you go out and have some fun for once in your
life."
"For your information, I have had more than my fair share
of fun --"
"Sometime before 1990," she sighed, adjusting her purse
strap. "Might be time for a refresher." She wiggled her
fingers before Bobbie had a chance to respond. "See you
around seven." With that, she turned and strode towards
the elevators.
"Carly!" Bobbie shouted after her. Carly pivoted on her
heel at the doors and looked at her expectantly, one hand
on her hip. She raised her brow, but her mother just
grinned at her in return. "The outfit suits you. But
you've got to do something about that purse."

Nikolas knew two things about his relationship with his
sister. The first was that the situation was an endlessly
delicate politic. The second was that Lucky was the only
reason there was even something to be delicate about. The
state of his relationship with his mother meant, as far
as Luke was concerned, that he had forgone any and all
benefits, including the right to call Lulu his sister. he
allowed this little access because Lucky pressed the
issue, and it came with a lot of riders.
First and foremost, she was not allowed anywhere
Cassadines gathered. And in turn, Nikolas was generally
discouraged from lurking anywhere Spencer-centric. Which
meant his visits with his sister always occurred in
public places -- malls, parks, restaurants. It denied a
certain intimacy and guaranteed a certain distance, for
Lesley Lu to never see any place that Nikolas called
home. Likewise, he was barred from her room, the Land
Where Lulu was Queen.
But beggars can't be choosers. And Cassadines didn't beg
to begin with.
"So," he asked his sister, as they walked through the
park across the street from the hospital. "What did you
--"
"Why did Carly leave so fast?" Lu cut him off, tugging on
his hand. "Why didn't she come with us? She said
'three's a crowd', but there's already three of
us."
So to speak. Lucky was walking about a dozen paces ahead,
turning disinterest into a higher art form.
"It's a saying."
"So? Why did she leave?"
God knows. He wasn't feeling particularly appreciative.
His sister wasn't letting the subject of Carly drop.
She'd already asked him a good thirty questions in the
office, the hallway and the elevator of General Hospital,
trying to piece together exactly how her cousin had
suddenly transformed into her sister-in-law. No one
was interested in making this easy on him.
"She had errands to run. Look," he pointed with his free
hand towards an ice cream cart set up on the boardwalk.
"Did you want --"
"Is she really gonna work for daddy?"
"Yes, she is."
"Why?"
Because somebody up there hates me.
"She wanted something to do with her time."
"Like work?" Lulu made a face. " I can think of
lots of things to do besides WORK."
"Right. Speaking of things to do --"
"Are you going to have babies with her?"
That stopped Nikolas dead. When did his sister start
demanding to know about his procreation plans? When had
popsicles stopped being adequate distraction
material?
"What?" The word seemed to lack a certain force, but he
couldn't come up with another response. "Where did
--"
"Cause if you did, would I be their cousin or their
aunt?"
"Both," he stammered. "Technically."
"How can I be both?" she complained. "Am I a half-aunt?
Would I be half-aunt and half-cousin?"
"No, you're a whole aunt."
"But half-cousin?"
"No, you'd --" he glanced in his brother's direction.
Lucky was standing, hands in his pockets, watching with
amusement.
"Don't look at me," he shrugged. "You got yourself into
this."
"What does that mean?" Lulu looked back and forth between
the two degrees of fraternal relations. "What did you get
yourself into?"
"The Spanish Inquisition?" he shook his head. "I can't
keep up with you here --"
"Well, you didn't even tell me," Lulu shot back, looking
-- for the first time in his experience -- really annoyed
with him. "You just got married. It's weird."
"I know," he signed. "Lu, let's sit down a minute,
ok?"
"Did you tell Lucky?"
"No."
"Did you tell anyone?"
"No. Lu --" Nikolas dropped down on one knee, trying to
catch his sister's eye. She was looking just over his
shoulder, frowning hard at God knows what. She looked
furious. And hurt. "Lesley Lu," he coaxed, softly.
"What's going on here?"
She shrugged, then sighed and offered a eye roll of
Lucky-esque proportions. "I dunno. It's not like I ever
know ANYTHING you're doing."
Oh good. He'd been running low on intense emotional pain
so far that day. "I know."
"And," she turned her eyes on him, now. "It's not like
you know anything I'm doing, either."
He hated this. Every time he and Lulu ran into this wall
of their spotty communication and his sporadic
involvement in her life, he felt pushed into a
corner.
He had a really easy answer for it.
But there was no way in hell he was going to give it to
her.
It took every ounce of self-restraint he had not to just
say, flat out, that it wasn't his choice, it wasn't his
behavior and it wasn't his FAULT that things were like
this.
It was her parents.
He was aware that it was the wrong thing to do. He was
aware that it was damaging. But God, it felt like the
right thing to say, sometimes.
"Listen," he said, instead, lowering his voice. " I'm
going to tell you something I haven't told anyone else.
But you have to keep it between us, ok?" He glanced in
Lucky's direction, but decided not to bother with taking
any security measures. It smacked of pointlessness. "I
didn't know I was going to marry Carly until it happened.
I would have told you -- I should have told you anyway. I
wanted to." He exhaled, reaching out to push a long dark
strand of hair away from her face. "It happened really
quickly."
"Why?"
"because I'm impatient," his mouth quirked and Lulu's
frown softened just a little. "I didn't want to wait, I
just wanted what I wanted right away."
"It's good to be patient."
"It's a virtue."
"I never am, either." She said it softly, like a
confidence and he felt like she's just kicked him in the
heart. He managed a smile.
"So you get it, then."
She shrugged. "I guess," then made a face. "Why
CARLY?"
Nikolas sighed. Some things, apparently, were
universal.

Lasagna. Frozen £$&*ing lasagna. ARE YOU
KIDDING ME?
Carly hit the street outside General Hospital with
that thought running on a loop through her head. That was
just hysterical. Her mother wasn't exactly a four star
chef, but was she serious about this? She was supposed to
serve Nikolas this stuff after how many years of being
fed gourmet meals three times daily?
The woman just didn't get it.
And she'd gotten herself into this, because God knows
what had possessed her to insist her mother stop using
her as a shield between her and the rest of the world.
She was so sick of being everyone's head case. She was
sick of the hand holding, the cautious looks and the
standoffish family members. Speaking of which -- GOD --
she should have given the fact that Nikolas was
brother-to-Lucky more thought before the whole marriage
thing. She'd never been able to put her finger on it, but
that guy bugged the living hell out of her. Just the way
he... stood there. The way he looked at her. That air of
smug so thick you'd choke on it if you weren't
careful.
Sometimes she thought she hated him more than his father,
except they'd never had anything resembling a
conversation. That, in fact, might be part of why she
loathed him so much.
The sister, that was fine. If nothing else it was fine
because of how Nikolas was about her. The picture on the
dresser -- it was the only ornament on top of the large
wood beast and it touched her, that he'd have that there.
It was the first thing he'd put up in that room -- and
she got that. She liked that.
She just hated Lucky. And Spencers. And anyone who wore
their hair like that.
Carly had turned right the second she came out the
sliding front doors and was four or five very powerful
strides down the sidewalk when something grabbed her arm
and spun her around with a ferocity that almost took her
feet out from under her.
"What the HELL?" she demanded, coming face-to-face with
the tall, thin, Hitchcockian woman who's hand was wrapped
around her upper arm.
"Caroline Cassadine?"
Carly felt her body temperature rise a few degrees.
"CARLY," she spit back in the woman's face. "Jesus, what
is WITH you people?"
The woman cocked an eyebrow. "Is that a yes?"
"Who the hell are you?"
"I'm looking for your husband. Is he still up there?
Cause he's not answering his phone. Stunningly."
She scowled, pulling her arm free. "What are you talking
about?"
"I'm his assistant. I'm looking for him. Do you need
anymore details?"
"His -- " Carly had a flash of realization. Assistant.
Crap. "You're Cece?"
"My reputation proceeds me."
"YOU'RE Cece?"
"And you're the wife. Are we clear on who we're talking
to now?"
Carly shook her head slightly. She'd given about ten
seconds of paranoid thought to the assistant before
decided that someone Nikolas avoided as studiously as he
did this woman wasn't anything resembling a threat.
Non-threats weren't supposed to look like Tippi Hedren.
They were supposed to look like the chick with the
glasses from the Beverly Hillbillies. Her stomach
lurched.
"Where's your phone?" Cece was continuing without
regard.
Carly immediately wrapped the strap of Ugly Purse around
her wrist protectively. "why?"
"Something tells me he has a wife-access back up plan.
Give me your phone."
"Wait!" Carly put up a hand. "what the hell do you want
him for, anyway?"
Cece regarded him through narrowed eyes. After a critical
silence, she murmured. "What do we have here?"
She wasn't saying it like a force of evil in a fairy
tale. It was an actual inquiry. A blunt, expectant,
inquiry.
"Do you always talk like this?"
"Most of the time. What do we have? Are we doing that
territorial chick thing? Because I cannot stress how
little time I have for that. And you're infringing on my
time as it is."
"Hey. YOU came to talk to ME -- " Carly noticed passers
by were pausing to take in the show.
"Oh, I'm not talking about today," Cece muttered. "This
is an accumulation of time wasted. I've been keeping
records, if you're interested."
"What are you -- " She tried to start again, but it all
came out like a sputtering engine. She did not have it in
her to have this conversation today. It was like her
entire personality had abandoned her, and now this
mad-yapping mannequin thing was in her face. She couldn't
quite get past the discombobulation to access her sarcasm
failsafe.
"You know what?" Cece cut her off yet again. "We need
coffee. This is a conversation the includes coffee. Come
on."
With that, she turned on her heel and started up the
block towards the nearest Starbucks. Carly watched
blankly for a moment, then started after her.
Mostly because she couldn't figure out what else she was
supposed to do.

And this is where it happened.
It might have been obvious to any number of you out there
that Casualties would never come to completion. And
what's funny about THAT is that only I know how much of
it is incomplete.
And yet?
It took this long for me to really embrace what is
happening to my life. Which is that it's moving away from
fanfic and into a lot of other areas and while all of
that is great and all
I can't stand the idea of
leaving something I love so much unfinished.
So I hatched a plan.
Anyone here read The Princess Bride?
This is the end of Casualties, Proper. It ends right
there, because my life just ceased to allow it. And most
readers who are still here would argue it ceased to allow
it over two years ago.
What begins now is more the abridged version. The 'good
parts' version. The story anyone not as ridiculously
hopeless in the art of story structure and editing might
have written in the first place. These are more like the
Casualties Chronicles (though, screw that, no name
chages), and this is what is going to get this story
finished.
I begin now with what I couldn't finish for this
chapter.
!*!*!
So Nikolas and Lulu are at the park. And it's boring.
Why? Because there's just nothing to do and Lulu is
feeling kinda irritable. And Lucky's pacing and being
quiet, but it feels obtrusive to have him there anyway,
probably BECAUSE he's being so quiet and Death-Row Guard
about it. And then it starts to rain. Because it has not
rained NEARLY enough in this story yet. And Lulu is still
asking questions. Like what was the wedding like? Nikolas
doesn't want to answer because even this is far too
personal for him to comment on. It eventually comes out
that he was married in Vegas and that no one was there
and it had to be that way because it takes too long to
plan a party like they have at most weddings. Lulu
immediately draws the comparison between this and Jason
and Robin's wedding and reveals to Nikolas that he is,
essentially screwed in the following exchange.
"I think you'll have to have another wedding that people
can come to."
"Why's that?"
"Because," Lulu looked up at him, sagely. "Carly would
want a wedding
at least as big as Robin's."
Dun Dun DA!
Moving on
The rain isn't letting up and with one
thing and another it's revealed that Nikolas is staying
at the Brownstone and a loophole is born. The Brownstone
is not Cassadine Territory. It's Spencer Territory. And
more to the point, it's indoors. A non-rain-soaked plan
is hatched.
Carly & Cece have tense coffee. Mostly because Carly
is pissed at everyone and wound tighter than I can
describe over the combination of Kevin and the promises
she made to Nikolas the night before. And then there's
the purse. The purse is a metaphor, I'm sure you noticed.
A big clunky metaphor whose shoes are too big. However,
it does give Cece the chance to introduce Carly to the
concept of minions&emdash;who could have had a selection
of handbags from Wyndams in her living room before she'd
even left the house that morning. "Minions are the
Cassadine Must-Have Accessory. They fetch, they follow,
they take care of the inconvenient. You need one.
Clearly. For right now, you want the edges of your life
smoothed? I'm your quickest access. And until you get
your own, frankly inferior, assistant, I'm willing to
facilitate. "
Carly, ever suspicious, wants to know why Cece is on this
tear.
Cece describes her job before Carly. Focusing
particularly on the fact that Nikolas was at the office,
most of the time, and if he wasn't, then she could reach
him via cell phone. "He didn't have a personal life
&endash; Not one I had to know about. And I don't care
that he has one now, but for the love of GOD, one week
without a personal crisis and I'll be satisfied, at this
point."
Gosh, wouldn't we all?
Carly isn't deeply moved, but takes this under
advisement. If Cece agrees to take care of her purse
problem, as a sign of good faith. But she doesn't think
she can do much and her open manipulation skills are
&endash; at least at the moment -- retired.
Cece produces something out of her magic bag of tricks
&endash; a.k.a. briefcase &endash; and hands it off. It's
an article from a Finance periodical about Nikolas,
Cassadine Enterprises and his career thus far (which is,
of course, all of two years old). The upshot is this:
Nikolas was successful. Grossly successful. And Cece
doesn't know what Carly's interests are, but it would
probably behoove everyone to keep him that way. She
leaves Carly to consider.
Oh my God, that felt so good.
Here are the parts I deemed 'good'. Which is really just
Xara for 'the parts I wanted to write because something
about them interested me'. I'm sorry you guys are so much
at my whim, but if you really think about it, this whole
thing has ALWAYS been at something's whim that is not so
much the readership's.

"Luxury Tax."
Lucas didn't raise his eyes off the monopoly board in
front of him. He'd had a mellow afternoon planned. A
little lunch, a little MasterDeath IV while his mother
was out and then? Nap. He'd been halfway through a
grilled cheese sandwich when the phone had rung. Now,
here he was, two hours since his cousins and
brother-and-law had landed, drenched, on the doorstep and
an hour and a half into this game, and he was actually
beginning to fear for his life. Just a little bit.
Just
enough that he didn't want to make eye
contact.
"Luxury Tax. What luxury? I have five mortgaged
properties, a hundred and twenty-two dollars and a slum
-- a declining slum. What is my luxury?"
"There are starving children in Africa who have no
slums," Lucky murmured from across the table. "You don't
question it, you just pay it."
"This game requires absolutely no skill."
"So you keep mentioning."
The front door closed just as Nikolas was receiving
change for his sole remaining 100 bill. Lucas swivelled
around and caught his sister as she appeared in the
doorway to the living room, arms ladden with grocery
bags. She drew back at the sight of the company, then
offered a confused "Hi."
Lucky raised a hand in greeting without actually looking
at her. Nikolas opened his mouth to speak, but was cut
off by Lucas, complaining indignantly,"I already GOT the
milk!"
"Not milk," Carly murmured as she crossed the room, eyes
already fixed on the game board. "Are you playing
Monopoly?"
"Playing makes it sound like something people do for
fun," Nikolas muttered as he counted his funds, which
currently wouldn't pay for a trip on the Reading
Railroad.
"What's the groceries about?" Lucas was pressing.
"Making lasagna."
"Why?"
"I felt like it." She looked down at the board. "Which
one are you?"
"Scotty dog," Lulu chirped. "Lucas is always the car and
Nikolas let me be the horse."
Carly scanned the board. Lucky was the old shoe. Who'd
have guessed.?
"Mom's GOT lasagna in the freezer," Lucas was
pressing.
"I know," she tried shifted the bags in her hands. "Who
owns Boardwalk?"
"Lucky," Lucas spit. "I've got Park Place, but he won't
deal."
"I'll deal," Lucky drawled. "When you've got something
I'm interested in."
"Riiiight," Carly studiously kept her eyes away from him,
"What do you own?" she asked, nudging her husband's
shoulder. Then she glanced down at the meagre and mostly
inverted cards in front of him, and snorted. "Is that
all?"
"Thank you," Nikolas murmured. "That's very
supportive."
There was enough humour in his words that Carly just
brushed his neck with her finger tips and stepped back.
"You'll rally. I have faith."
"Yeah," Lucas spoke up. "Isn't this, like, what you do
for a living?"
Carly winced. "Yeah. Have fun with that. I'll be in the
kichen --"
"I'll help." Nikolas lept on the sentence, cutting her
off. Carly frowned.
"Help?"
"Or something," he murmured, pushing back from the table.
"I can learn to help."
"But it's your TURN," Lulu protested.
"I just went! I paid tax!"
"You rolled doubles!"
Nikolas sighed heavily and silently cursed his ever
having complained about Chess. Karma was a bitch.
"Here," he picked up the dice and impatiently tossed them
down on the board. Snake eyes. Lulu sucked in her
breath.
"Third time. You go to jail!"
"What?"
"It's the best place for you," Lucas pointed out. "You
can't go bankrupt in jail."
Nikolas snapped his fingers impatiently. "And that's
another reason this game is completely unrealistic."
"Hence the term 'game'," Lucky pointed out, drily. "I
mean, you have noticed that horses don't always move in
an L-shape, right?
"Actually, baby?" Carly put a hand on her husband's arm.
"I could use some help putting everything away. I'll even
show you how to boil water. It'll be novel and
stuff."
She caught the smile that flashed across Nikolas's face.
he pushed back his chair. "Ok, Lesley Lu. Put me in jail,
I'll help Carly until my turn's up."
"Only three turns!"
"Three," Carly's hand had closed around his wrist and he
was now being pulled back towards the kitchen. "Right.
I'll be back."
As the door swung open, they caught someone's murmered
"Baby?"
Carly started to laugh, hightened and strange, the moment
the door swung closed. "How the hell," she hissed,
dropping the bags onto the counter "Did you get into
that?"
"Rain. Mostly," he wasted no time grabbing her around the
waist and pulling her into a quick but deadly kiss. "It
looked less intimidating than Risk."
Carly nodded, distractedly, pushing herself away from him
bodily. "No. You'd like Risk. Risk would be right up your
alley."
"Lulu hates it."
"Ah, yeah." She took a deep breath as she started to dig
through her bags. "I kind of hate it, too." She let her
eyes dart over to him. "But you don't look so miserable.
For someone getting his ass handed to him."
He shrugged. "You don't look so miserable. For someone
who --"
"No, no, no," Carly shook her head. "Not the 't' word,
no."
"Ok, ok," Nikolas pulled one of hte bags over to his side
of the counter and started to unpack it, only vaguely
aware of the purpose and personality of the things he was
lining up on the counter. "So can I ask what all the food
is about?"
"This is my new way of making points," she let out more
honesty than she'd entirely meant to. "Mama's gonna be a
little late, and I'm a big brat."
"You don't have to keep doing this, you know."
"It takes my mind off stuff." She muttered, not caring to
dig up the other feelings of inadequacy that had her
pursuing this particular distrction.
"How was the rest of your day?" He fished for them,
anyway.
"Pretty blah," she ignored the churning stomach that came
with the question, keeping her gaze deep in her shopping
bags. "What about you?"
"Uh," he exhaled, glancing towards the door. "Honestly? I
didn't realize what a big difference it would make, to
have some place to take Lulu."
"What do you mean?"
"I don't know, it feels so normal. MOre like we arne't
performing some sort of underground operation the general
public can't find out about."
Carly plunked a can of tomato paste down on the counter
and muttered. "Jesus. Luke is that much of an jackass
about this?"
They held each other's gaze a moment, the invitation to
return to darker places dancing in teh space between
them. She could almost feel Nikolas remove her from the
hook.
"Yeah. He's that much of a jackass about it. On the other
hand, I get to see her. So."
"I guess," she forced a bit of a laugh. "Even if she's
creaming you at monopoly."
"It's because she's small," he scowled, though he was
smiling. "Everyone will cut deals with her. Me, they
leave to the wolves with only my wit and charm to protect
me."
"Poor baby," she cooed. "The world's so cruel to old
money."
"You have no idea."
"NIKOLAS!" Lulu bellowed on cue from the other room.
"Your TURN!"
He groaned. "Excuse me. I have a board game to lose."
He started around the island, and Carly's hand reached
out and grabbed his shirt as he passed behind her. "Hey,"
she whispered , her eyes darting up to his. "You
happy?"
He looked down at her, then over at the groceries laid
out on the counter. For a second, she felt transparent.
Then he smiled.
"I'm a lot of things. Happy's in there some place." His
hand slid into her hair and he bent towards her.
"Nikolas!"
They both cracked up mid-kiss and he stepped back,
shaking his head. "Hold that thought. I'll be back when
I'm bankrupt."
"Be quick about it," Carly called after him. "There'll be
a lot of stirring to do."

Bobbie nearly tripped through the front door of the PC
Grille, in a whirlwind of adjusting skirt hems and bra
straps. She hadn't stopped to breathe more than two
seconds together since around noon and was sorely
regretting her decision to take her daughter's advice. It
bothered her that Carly had a point and that, more than
anything else, was her reason for being here. She was not
the sort of woman to condemn herself to a life of
solitude -- and yet, somehow, in the last few years she
had sunk herself so deep into her children's life that
she had turned into some sort of hermit.
Stranger things had happened, she supposed. But the idea,
now that it had time to fester, was repulsive to her. And
it wasn't like Brian was anything distasteful. It was
just...
How was it possible that she was she
<i>still</i> dating?
She blew out an irritated breath and looked around the
bar for any sign of the doctor. Five minutes late, he'd
have to still be here -- unless he'd been paged, which
she probably should have heard and even then --
Oh. Come ON.
Probably a bad sign,how fast a whole day's wrought nerves
and excited anticipation vanished into thin air when she
laid eyes on her ex-husband. Backed into a far corner, a
drink in one hand and his eyes fix sourly on the table
top, she didn't even look around for Brian, didn't even
pause to plan her attack -- she just strode, chin tipped
up, across the room and dropped her purse onto the
table.
"Well. Imagine meeting you here."
"If you're inferring anything, I'd point out that I had a
meeting and was, in fact, here first."
"Details," Bobbie pulled out the chair opposite and took
a seat. "I expected to hear from you earlier."
"And why is that?"
"I think you know why that is." She sat back, setting her
most accusing look on him. "How COULD you, Stefan?"
A small, bitter smile crept over his lips. "A better
question would be -- how could I not?"
"Off hand? You just don't. You sit on your hands, you
look the other way, you take a Valium, if it comes to it.
You just don't DO it."
Stefan lifted his head and looked at her. Not his usually
disaffected examination -- a real, eye-to-eye, soul
bared, gaze. He looked exhausted, drained, wrung out. She
tried to tighten her grip on her righteousness, but it
shriveled in her hands. Oh, what was she doing? Like
yelling at him was going to do anyone one bit of good.
She turned away, shaking her head.
"I'll save you asking," she muttered, bitterly. "Nikolas
is fine."
"We spoke this morning."
She tensed her shoulders. "Carly's managing, too, if
you're interested."
"They're staying with you."
"For the time being, it looks that way, yes." She gave
him a pointed look. "It wasn't that long ago, the shoe
was on the other foot, you know. If I was a vengeful
woman --"
"I wouldn't be sitting here with you, certainly."
There was a little humor -- bitter, though it was -- in
his words. It irritated her. Brushing off the topic of
her daughter, after what he'd done...
"There is probably something more constructive that you
could be doing right now, if you're at all interested in
setting this right."
"Why would you want me to set this right, Barbara?" He
put the drink down, to fastidiously straighten a shirt
cuff. "You've achieved a complete reversal of fortune,
and if you thought that your coming over and deigning to
speak to me would be the crowning achievement, making you
unequivocally the bigger person, you are wasting your
time," he waved a hand. "I acquiesce. The mantle is
yours."
Bobbie stared at him, opened her mouth, then closed it
again. God damnit.
"Stefan," she tapped her finger tips on the table top.
"You really know how to suck all the fun out of being
right, you know that?"
He responded by lifting his glass towards her, though she
noticed he had not, save that first glare, allowed his
eyes to venture anywhere near hers. She watched him take
a pull from the glass and felt her sense of ire abating.
She'd always had a problem with follow through...
"It's not like you drink in public."
He put the glass down on the table with a thump. "And
what do I have to go home to?"
"Stefan..." she let her sudden worry come out like
scolding. "This isn't like you."
"No," he agreed. "It most certain is not." He glanced up
at her. "Will you allow me to buy you a drink? To the
victor go the spoils."
"It wasn't a game. I wasn't trying to beat you at
anything! I was just trying to --"
"Barbara," he cut her off. "Is that a yes, or a no?"
Bobbie pressed her lips together. "I'm meeting someone,"
she finally told him, tersely. He just looked at her. "A
man. A date."
She watched him digest that. Circle around it like a
python closing in on prey.
"Then allow me to keep you company until he arrives," he
murmured. Pretty words, but there was a rasp to them that
unsettled her.
"Ok," she picked up her purse, holding it in her lap and
cocking her head to one side. "All right, Stefan. I'll
wait with you -- if you answer one question for me."
Still no eye contact, he merely grunted his
agreement.
"You were playing the game absolutely flawlessly until
you brought out that damn pre-nup. She trusted you,
Stefan! She had me and her uncle and her husband all
telling her to be careful -- but you had snaked right
under her defenses and had her in the palm of your hand.
You must have known that. WHAT could have possessed you
to
"Desperation." After a moment, he looked up at her and
smiled -- a sad, painful smile. "Silence."
"Silence," she repeated. And she knew -- she knew,
because she'd experienced it so often over the past year
that
It was always the silence that she couldn't stand, it was
always that which made her panic. She knew what to do
when Carly would talk -- even if she said terrible
things. But when she just went into her shell...
"From Nikolas?" she asked, "Nikolas is always so-- " She
gestured, fruitlessly. "Blunt!"
"He was."
"Before," she started, and then let the sentence die. She
knew what he was saying. She'd noticed it in him, too,
from her considerable distance. "And now?"
Stefan didn't answer. She decided to fill in the blank
herself. Secretive, she guessed. Closed off. Cold. Not to
her daughter. Not that she could see. But that would only
make this worse, wouldn't it?
She sighed. Not much else to say. And not much else for
her to gain from sitting here, either. She ran her thumb
over the leather on her purse and then threw up a
hand.
"All right. You can get me a scotch and soda," she raised
a warning finger. "But I won't be worked on. I'm just
keeping you company."
He nodded and gestured for a waiter. "A man in my
position lives on unnecessary kindness."

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